youre jumping around the world

without me

grab your pillow full of hate

and have a good ol' scream at it !

dear blog

i wont lie to you, youre not my 1st
sorry you had to find out this way
youre about my 3rd or 4th
but i keep the others secret

HOLD ME BACK

how long will it take you to realise youre only young once ?
to realise if youre going to make a mistake, then make it while you have someone to blame.
blame the society, blame the political system, blame your strict parents (because they wouldnt let you get your lip pierced when you were 12)
your time is now
fuck it up while you can
make a mess
dont clean it up
because this is your only chance

and you wonder why i hate you

well, sometimes i think 'why arent we friends anymore ?' then i fall back into this perpetual sense of self loathing because you and i both know we could never be friends for what you have done, for what you are, and finally because what youre capable of (which i highly doubt you may prance around thinking people really will believe you now, because the world hates you and your own best friend should start questioning their position in your life). i dont like what you have become and i cant just erase those memories, but i try.
goodbye.